A Fragement Years Back

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I was lying there beside you
All numb for the rest of the night
Thinking and wondering, laying still but fumbling
Saying a thousand words to you
But not uttering a single one
I wanted to hold you but
My pride had the better of me
I wanted to stop you
Postpone your sweet tying up
Alter the fixed date of joy
Just wanted to give my emotions a chance
Just wanted to give us a chance
But never mind.....I didn't
As you slept on, tired.........all hungry
As you mumbled there in your sleep....all unfulfilled
I saw you......I saw you sleeping
I rested my palms on your cheeks
I saw you...........I saw through you
And let our moment pass unnoticed
I wanted you to be freed.....I wanted you for me
I sighed and laughed at my greed
You were my want not my need
I was at my weakest
I was exposed and felt my soul naked
So i kept quiet all wounded
And let the time, our time pass

And now when I see you after the years
I smile and ponder
That night, flashes clear
And I smile reminiscing
The morning after the moment
When I was happy that I let it pass
But I was at peace that I let myself live and love
Over and over again

Comments

rahul said…
Wonderful. The best line for me, 'You were my want not my need'. With such abundant ease how you say all. Mesmerized. Wish I could have the ability to express with such brevity but with so much passion. Wont say any more so not to spoil the effect.
March 6, 2014 at 7:55 AM
Datta Ghosh said…
Thanks Rahul, We are ourselves the only person we need and everyone else is a want, the mild want or a strong want is that matters but want nonetheless.
March 7, 2014 at 10:07 PM
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