The Dimension Of The Being

You sometimes make me  Wonder- put me in awe   Oh so beyond human   That someone could be   So full of warmth   Yet so chillingly cold,   So innocent like that Mountain breeze   Yet so deceptive and   Full of lies-that now   Surround me and   Make me go blind   So, blind that now  I can't See you nor can I feel   The love you promised me   And no doubt you have always given me   But now that I've seen the real you   And I don't like what I see   And I start loathing you   Despising the time we met   And now I hate myself   Not because I love you   But when i loathe you   I reject the very fabric   Of my existence as a soul..... Our union gives me bliss But this bliss makes my heart bleed And I weep with contention Hidden deep in my eyes I am a chaotic self Whose calm lies in your arms But then the lies suffocate me And I run out to reach For the calm, which  I know i shall never get While I am torn apart from you Bu

Little silly emotions Prop out their head and timidly draw back As if no one ever sees Sees them smile Sees them flirt And see them soaring high In the night sky When the moon is bright The stars are neigh And we walk by the star light Holding our hands Till our heads swoon And we are dizzy Then you say with me Yes me you feel so free freedom when no emotions Attached- you feel that with me And I.... well I shut my emotions down Throttle them till they can look no more I drop them from a height And they fall into an abyss Of no return I shut them off To be with you To be close to you Always ever too afraid to Come into the light As it may show my scarred face which is due to my emotions And then you might leave me And I cant bear to let you go So, I keep my throbbing heart at peace Run a blade through it. So it stops beating and saying your Name aloud But....then it happens that you leave me And funny but i don't have a heart to stop yo